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When I first painted this, I thought I was holding a little piece hope I found. It felt small but powerful but also fleeting like it might fly away. But days later, after waking up from a dream, I see it’s not hope that I found. It’s a
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poetry
25.12.19 My mind is racing The demons won’t go away. On the surface, I’m singing, But underneath I’m not okay. I’m not even trying To look fine, I’ve done it so many times It’s second nature. Dark clouds When will you go
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Highlights * Healing is long, hard and emotional - it takes more than you think and you will hit a plateau with steps foward and back * Healing physical wounds impacts emotional capacity to regulate, cope and respond This week had wins and challenges. I spent at least three days on the
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16 years. 37 years. 40 years. Months. Time doesn’t heal all. That saying that time heals all is not true. Processing heals and that takes time. But time alone doesn’t heal all. And maybe some things never heal. It certainly doesn’t go back to what it was
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Finally got to see my ACL specific physio, Jian Soares from Fall Line Fitness, today. He was also pleased with my progress though also resounded words of caution that the wound and graft needs their healing time. We worked on some quad activation and he measured my knee flexion -
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0:00 /0:17 1× The gals from my morning strength class are so sweet; They've helped me get to the gym today and do some modified upper body exercises. I can't retrieve or put back weights and equipment, so it's been on them
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I stepped out of the car and walked into the clinic, sans crutches. As I walked towards my physio, her eyes fixated on my bottom limbs. After some more observation, she commented that she was pleased with the strength and mobility I have reached, but I need to slow down.
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M, my partner who has been diligently taking care of me throughout this surgery recovery as well as through the nervous breakdown and burnout I had before the surgery, really deserves and needs a rest. I encouraged him to go skiing and found myself a catsitter (I'm the
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I woke up to a throbbing in my knee I couldn't ignore. I relctuantly took a full Extra Strength Tylenol and texted my friend to let her know I sadly would not be able to make it to her birthday celebration today. As much as I really want
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1 week! Last week at this time, I would be at home post surgery, weakly hugging a blue plastic I couldn't stop vomitting in. Now, I have returned home from the doctor's who trimmed my sutures and I'm furiously writing on my blog while
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I overdid it yesterday. And I felt it today. I had to pop half a Tylenol Extra Strength this morning and felt pretty heavy mentally and sore physically today. But that didn't stop me from calling my kinesio to ask if we can find a way for me