Just came back from the surgeon's appointment. I passed to be able to drive and (light) travel now. The surgeon was happy with my range of motion. We chatted about the effects the surgery had on my head/tbi and what I needed going forward. I had a
Hi. I'm .... me. Shed my name, age, sex...even the events that have happened to me. And I see...feel...am... i can't describe in words what I have come to realize i am. energy. shapeless. fluid. all and one in the same. borderless. unique but
This past week, my head really started going down. I was carefully walking down a flat dirt trail. It had rained so the trail was muddy but I was able to maneuver around the puddles and paid care to the undulations in the path. Suddenly, I didn't know
Cocoon (25355) Woven into the scaffolds of my solitary sanctuary, That also feels like a cage at times, My armor sheds and exposes My soft flesh, Underbelly, scars, insides and all. A caterpillar doesn’t choose when it metamorphasizes, But it does know when it’s time to change, And
Today I went for the psych evaluation my doctor ordered months ago. My therapists had recommended it too. Concerned friends and medical professionals used diagnostic words like "bipolar", "mania" , "ADHD" and some other ones to describe the mental and nervous breakdown I had in
Healing is exhausting. I note now that every third day, I seem to have a day where I can't think or move and just lay there. I'm not quite sleeping, though I do doze off a lot. Sometimes I am sleeping, and when I am not,
When I first painted this, I thought I was holding a little piece hope I found. It felt small but powerful but also fleeting like it might fly away. But days later, after waking up from a dream, I see it’s not hope that I found. It’s a
25.12.19 My mind is racing The demons won’t go away. On the surface, I’m singing, But underneath I’m not okay. I’m not even trying To look fine, I’ve done it so many times It’s second nature. Dark clouds When will you go
Highlights * Healing is long, hard and emotional - it takes more than you think and you will hit a plateau with steps foward and back * Healing physical wounds impacts emotional capacity to regulate, cope and respond This week had wins and challenges. I spent at least three days on the
What makes art,...art? Is it understanding what the artist was trying to convey? Is it seeing it at all? What about creations unviewed...unexperienced. Messages unreceived. We view art, trying to decipher what we are looking at, to find meaning in it and ourselves. Does art need to be
16 years. 37 years. 40 years. Months. Time doesn’t heal all. That saying that time heals all is not true. Processing heals and that takes time. But time alone doesn’t heal all. And maybe some things never heal. It certainly doesn’t go back to what it was
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(2022-10-11) (22284) Speak0:00/74.6026671× The messages are there. On the brink Of tipping Tip of my tongue Tongue in my cheek Where I feel strong, Is where I also feel weak. Thoughts flowing, Words forming. Almost tangible, But only crystallizing, When the time is right, Right now, Is
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Finally got to see my ACL specific physio, Jian Soares from Fall Line Fitness, today. He was also pleased with my progress though also resounded words of caution that the wound and graft needs their healing time. We worked on some quad activation and he measured my knee flexion -
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(2023) Her shadow Your shadow My shadow Our shadow I emerged one sunny day From you From your light, dark and all in between Dad once described my birth as A traumatic ordeal It was for me as well , trust me Her shadow Your shadow My shadow Our shadow Circling
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0:00 /0:17 1× The gals from my morning strength class are so sweet; They've helped me get to the gym today and do some modified upper body exercises. I can't retrieve or put back weights and equipment, so it's been on them
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I stepped out of the car and walked into the clinic, sans crutches. As I walked towards my physio, her eyes fixated on my bottom limbs. After some more observation, she commented that she was pleased with the strength and mobility I have reached, but I need to slow down.
Risk and dreaming0:00/1468.161× Matt stops by for an art hang and chat, but we end up chatting on the couch, respectively tired out from the day. From the far end of the couch, Matt agrees to: 1) Be a speaker at Nerd Nite next month 2) Allow
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It's funny, in the ironic way, that people think the physical pain and work is the hard part of healing. I would argue, in my experience and in this case, the psychological and emotional part is equally as important, if not more, and much harder. I know it&
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M, my partner who has been diligently taking care of me throughout this surgery recovery as well as through the nervous breakdown and burnout I had before the surgery, really deserves and needs a rest. I encouraged him to go skiing and found myself a catsitter (I'm the
At my last Nerd Nite, I closed off the year with this icebreaker question: What is more important to you: Preserving history and traditions or future planning and progress? I knew it was an ask that would stir up some discomfort in the audience, as most critical thinking questions do.