Today I went for the psych evaluation my doctor ordered months ago. My therapists had recommended it too. Concerned friends and medical professionals used diagnostic words like "bipolar", "mania" , "ADHD" and some other ones to describe the mental and nervous breakdown I had in
Healing is exhausting. I note now that every third day, I seem to have a day where I can't think or move and just lay there. I'm not quite sleeping, though I do doze off a lot. Sometimes I am sleeping, and when I am not,
art
When I first painted this, I thought I was holding a little piece of hope I found. It felt small but powerful but also fleeting like it might fly away. But days later, after waking up from a dream, I see it’s not hope that I found. It’s
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poetry
25.12.19 My mind is racing The demons won’t go away. On the surface, I’m singing, But underneath I’m not okay. I’m not even trying To look fine, I’ve done it so many times It’s second nature. Dark clouds When will you go
acl
Highlights * Healing is long, hard and emotional - it takes more than you think and you will hit a plateau with steps foward and back * Healing physical wounds impacts emotional capacity to regulate, cope and respond This week had wins and challenges. I spent at least three days on the
hidden messages
What makes art,...art? Is it understanding what the artist was trying to convey? Is it seeing it at all? What about creations unviewed...unexperienced. Messages unreceived. We view art, trying to decipher what we are looking at, to find meaning in it and ourselves. Does art need to be
healing
16 years. 37 years. 40 years. Months. Time doesn’t heal all. That saying that time heals all is not true. Processing heals and that takes time. But time alone doesn’t heal all. And maybe some things never heal. It certainly doesn’t go back to what it was
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(2022-10-11) (22284) Speak0:00/74.6026671× The messages are there. On the brink Of tipping Tip of my tongue Tongue in my cheek Where I feel strong, Is where I also feel weak. Thoughts flowing, Words forming. Almost tangible, But only crystallizing, When the time is right, Right now, Is
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Finally got to see my ACL specific physio, Jian Soares from Fall Line Fitness, today. He was also pleased with my progress though also resounded words of caution that the wound and graft needs their healing time. We worked on some quad activation and he measured my knee flexion -
